I think the time is coming!

I think Smokie is in her last few weeks of her pregnancy.

This is Smokie:

I say that because her moods have DEFINITELY changed. She “cries” when I leave the house, and is always wanting to be near me. I could walk out of the room and my sister would say Smokie whined. This will be a bittersweet pregnancy for both of us. I am sad that Smokie will no longer be able to be a mother after this and I know she’s going to miss having kittens. I, too, say that because she is getting too old to give birth. She’s going on 6 years old and being pregnant takes a lot out of her. But I can already hear a little mew coming from her birthing box and I can already see my sister’s cat, Princess, having a playmate (when it’s old enough!)! Though I am a little worried. Princess is a rambunctious kitten and I just hope she doesn’t try to play with or attack the newborns. Guess we’ll find out, huh?

I know this was boring. But I’m so excited, I can barely contain myself!c

Winter in the summer? Part 2

If I don’t make sense, bear with me. I woke up on the early side.

Okay, as you all know I am in a “Christmas” state of mind. Maybe it’s just because I’m tired of triple digit temperatures and I am ready for 50’s as highs and 20’s as lows. But I do know that after a while, I’ll get tired of the cold and would want spring to come. That’s how it always is.

Me, “E”, and my mom were talking about Christmas last night. Because of the economy, we doubt hardly anyone will decorate the outside of their house. That includes us. We usually have a lot out. Reindeer, spiral trees, lights all over the front and our bushes looking like someone lit them on fire. But have you noticed that less and less people are decorating year after year? I can bet that hardly ANYONE will have lights on their homes.

Can you imagine “Black Friday” (the day after Thanksgiving)? Do you think stores are going to be filled to the brim with people taking advantage of those sales? Absolutely not! If we can’t afford to DRIVE to the store, what makes economists think we can BUY stuff in the store? With $5 gas just around the corner, Christmas is going to be low-key all around America this year.

Can’t these people get it through their thick skull? Spending 5 billion dollars on a windmill farm isn’t going to help the economy. Did the stimulus checks help? Nope!

Winter in the summer? Part 1

I know, it seems a little odd to be thinking of the wintertime when current temperatures soar above 99*. But when a thread was posted in a forum I am a member of, it got me to thinking about wintertime. Christmas to be exact. I usually start my shopping early because I already know what everybody wants. My sister wants that hot guitar, my mom wants another “Mom of The Year” knick knack, and my dad… he doesn’t care. But this year, I am at a loss. I have an extra person to shop for and everyone has changed.

Oh, the other person? Me and “E” talked for a looooooong time yesterday. We both did something to contribute to what happened.

But yea, everyone has changed from where they were last year. One year, my sister wants that new Johnny Depp movie. This year, she wants a guitar. My mom isn’t sure what she wants for Christmas, if anything. My dad, that’s a hard one. I can’t even remember what he got last year. This year, I’ll take the guitar too. I’ve always wanted one. What’s even harder is that “E”’s birthday is 14 days before mine, and mine is 2 weeks before Christmas. I don’t want to have to get him something for his birthday then turn around and get him something for Christmas. Because this year, I plan on getting my twin something for her birthday (same as mine, remember that). Last year, I had pneumonia so I was too sick to even enjoy our birthday. Man, is Christmas and birthday gonna be hard to shop for!

I probably wouldn’t feel like Christmas is coming up too soon if it weren’t for the economy. Will anybody be able to celebrate Christmas? Who knows. But I can guaran-damn-tee that if the economy is just as bad, “It’s A Wonderful Life” won’t be playing in my household.

That’s it, I’m done!

I’m tired of being tossed aside like a piece of garbage. It’s hurts. Like a knife cutting into my heart and twisting.

“E” has decided he is going to start avoiding me. I won’t go into details, but it’s really starting to piss me off. I don’t like being lied to and if he has a reason he’s avoiding me I’d like to know! At first, I was happy to be in a relationship. Oh how I missed the feeling of someone’s arm around me. But now that I think about it, I was MUCH happier off being single. I didn’t have to the stress of trying to make it work, make him happy and me happy at the same time, and worrying if we’re gonna make it. Now that I think about it, I’m done worrying about guys/men/little boys. If they can’t man up and take responsibility and be truthful, then why try?

Is It Okay To Crap My Pants?

I have had such a busy week, I had totally forgotten about a contest I entered. This contest had a prize of winning a phone call from the band SOUL who will be performing at the South Texas Rock Festival tomorrow (July 12th). They would call the winner as they were walking towards the stage while on the speakerphone. The whole phone call would be videoed for SOUL’s “Live from South Texas Rock Fest” DVD.

This morning I got up early because I didn’t sleep much last night. As I checked my messages and e-mail, I noticed I had a message from a Street Team member who put the whole contest together. She said that I had won the contest and would be receiving the phone call! Naturally, I did a little victory dance. That was until it actually started to sink in. I am starting to get a little nervous though I am EXTREMELY excited. I am nervous mostly because I don’t want to make an idiot out of myself and have it broadcasted on a national DVD. But then again, I do embody my nickname and would be memorable!

So is it okay to crap my pants for the win?

Remind me why I agreed…

Yesterday, my mom and dad bought a new computer desk, air conditioner, and microwave. And that morning started off a little rough. Woke up feeling ill, Internet was down, and my eggs were a little on the bland side. So instead of TRYING to fix the internet problem, I just ate breakfast and lit up a cigarette. My Dad brings in the computer desk and TRIES to put it up together by himself. Granted, I had only been awake for 10 minutes. It was funny because he couldn’t find board “E” and the roller thing that goes on it. Being in a giving mood, I decided to help him. It was fun… for about 2 hours. Then the 3rd hour came and we weren’t finished. Wood was splitting, curse words were being thrown, and fingers were being pinched. As I helped tip the huge thing over, I started thinking. “Why did I agree to help with this thing when it’s 90 Degrees outside with only 2 fans blowing hot air around?”. After we install the AC and the computer desk, I hook the computer up to find there was NO internet connection. After 30 minutes, I was back online checking e-mail. Not long after, I went to die in the bed and watch TV until I pass out. Next time, I sending out for reinforcements.

Was that necessary?

I wasn’t feeling well last night so I took some sinus medicine and went to bed early. As I drift off to dream land, I feel Smokie get on my side and start kneading. Keep in mind she’s pregnant so she’s going to be doing this a lot. That doesn’t bother me. It’s actually very soothing and felt pretty damn good. I mean, a free massage by a cat. I guess Smokie didn’t want me to be asleep. Just as I hit REM stage, I hear this meow. Right in my ear. I turn my head to her direction and she’s just sitting there. I can imagine her saying “That’s right. Wake up and pay attention to me damnit!”. Even though I am not even 5% awake, I take her to my sister and tell Smokie “Here, love on her.”.  Of course that didn’t work and she came right back to where she was. Needless to say, I just let her be and went back to sleep. But was it necessary to make a racket during sleep?

6 years? I’ve been out of HS for 5!

Earlier, I was at the public library. I was picking up some books I haven’t read yet and movies because I am tired of the ones at home. Just as I sat down to leaf through the books’ pages, I see someone out of the corner of my eye. You know when you’re around strangers, not paying attention, and someone who looks familiar is seen through the corner of your eye? That happened to me.

As I looked up, this woman started walking my way. Without even taking a second look, I knew who it was. Much to my surprise it was a girl I went to middle school with. The minute she asked how I was doing, it began. We reminisced, laughed, and just enjoyed ourselves. We exchanged our jobs, and asked what I went by (I’m a music promoter by the way) when people ask for me. I told her to guess and she wasn’t even close. I won’t post my nickname because I can just imagine the comments I will get. When she heard that, she couldn’t breathe. She couldn’t breathe because she was laughing too hard. She said “You used to be too sweet for that nickname! I guess things change over 6 years.”. After she quit talking (I think I was able to get at least 2 sentences in), she took my phone number and I checked out my items.

On the drive home, I started thinking. Wait, I graduated in 2003. Since it’s 2008, that would make it 5 years since I’ve been out of school. We didn’t go to the same high school. It’s been 9 or 10 years since we went to school together. 6 years??? Wow, that makes me feel old. But what makes me feel older is that she forgot to mention we haven’t went to school together for 10 years. Did she forgot we’re not in high school anymore?

I think I am at a loss for words…

If you’ve read my last post from July 3rd, you would know that “E” was invited to spend July 4th with us. Well, I woke up really early for some reason on July 4th. I think it was like at 7:30. Not even 2 hours later, I get this call from “E”. You know when people are whiny and they say “Come get meeeeee.”. That was pretty much what he said. So I did. The whole way home, he kept saying “I missed you. I love you.”, even though we hadn’t seen each other in only 2 days. He kept saying that all day and wanted to spend a lot of time with my family as well as me. He even got in on the water fight between me and my sister. I must say, he looked damned sexy! He was laughing and joking with my family as if he was already a part of it. That meant a lot to me.

Later that evening, we all 5 (me, my dad, my mom, sister, and “E”) head out to find a place to watch the fireworks. The whole time before they begin, me,  “E”, and my sister are joking around and taking pictures. Me and him even got 2 pictures together, though he messed up the first one by making a weird face. I won’t post the pictures for safety’s sake. As the fireworks are going off, he leans over and gives me a kiss. My sister says “I can’t wait for the finale.”. I replied with “That makes two of us” and “E” says “That makes all of us.”. I said “Trying to get rid of us?”. What he says next made me speechless because no guy has ever made the effort. He said “No, I enjoy spending time with you guys.”. Well he either said “love” or “enjoy”. I can’t remember. But nonetheless, I wanted to cry. Someone that appreciates my family as much as I do has a really big heart. I am really looking forward to the next couple of months as we develop our relationship and he develops his relationship with my mom. What’s scary though is that my sister said she can see “E” as her brother-in-law!

Hope everyone had a great July 4th!

Independence Day Will Be Different…

For some reason, July 4th is a little depressing for me. I am usually broke, single, and I never have anything planned. I just stay home and either sleep or play around online. July 4th this year will be different. I have realized that 2008 is my year. While the economy hasn’t helped much in the way of making living comfortable, love sure has graced me with it’s presence. This July 4th, I will be spending it with my family and a new addition. My mom, for the first time since I’ve started dating, has invited “E” to spend the WHOLE day with us. Never has she invited one of my boyfriends to spend any kind of Holiday with us. As well as getting the spend the whole day with “E”, I have a renowned sense of well-being. I finally found out who I was and know I am heart-healthy. As I sit by my boyfriend and surrounded by my family to watch as the fireworks explode (so to speak), I will have a new vision on life.